In 2006, 07 08, & 09 I was running track and cross country, cycling, and playing soccer. I spent a lot of time in the gym but went through periods of very little strength training. I weighed anywhere from 125 to 145 and had about 11%-20% body fat. My figure was determined by what sports season it was or what race I was preparing for. During cross country I was running 60+ miles per week and training for soccer, during that time I had very little muscular definition, but could run forever and pretty darn fast.
|Won 1/2 marathon|
|3rd show 2011|
|4th show 2012|
After that show I knew I needed to stop dieting so hard because my body was on a roller coaster of over training, under sleeping and under eating. I started gaining weight and was experimenting with raw eating, intermittent fasting, and other dietary theories. I was enjoying my body as a test lab when I hurt my foot again and was sidelined from running and anything high impact. My body was trying to heal itself but I knew I was in trouble, my body image demons were sneaking up on me. I had to deal with things my own way, I needed something new to train for to refocus my energy. I started training for power lifting and I knew I was continuing to gain weight, but I was getting stronger and that was my goal.
|First powerlifting meet|
I've been focusing on learning new skills, studying, diving deeper in to yoga and revisiting events in gymnastics that have always scared me. I've run a couple races and have been hitting the trails on the weekend and I've starting playing soccer again. When I was 13 I chose to embrace all the amazing things my body could do, I had been anorexic through middle school and junior high but when I decided to embrace being athletic rather than struggling to remain skinny I made a choice to take on life as a physical journey. I've used my body to learn about different diets, how the body adapts to different training methods and life styles. I've had and will have ups, downs and big learning curves along the way but I want help others more than anything else and these experiences have been invaluable in doing so.
As I ran on the treadmill today and watched myself in the mirror, knowing my body is bigger now than I have ever been. The 13 year old me would have said, "you need to keep running so you can be small and then people will like you." The 19 year me would have said, "how'd you let yourself get so big, run 10 miles and do a spin class...maybe train after work tonight too." Today I saw myself and thought, "Damn, look at those thighs! But, I've worked my butt off to get here, I'm strong, can do tricks I thought I'd never do, I've competed in 4 bodybuilding/figure shows, I won a half marathon, I competed in a power-lifting competition, I've started my own business and BEST OF ALL I've used my life experiences to help others." My training journey has no end and I hope to continue trying new things and helping others in a big way. I want to inspire women to look within an find their inner athlete. When you look in the mirror do you have negative thoughts about your body or do you embrace the psychological and physical and struggles and challenges you have overcome?
|Fitness Challenge Plus 2013. These ladies understand the quote below...|
“Change the way you look at things and the things you look at change.”
― Wayne W. Dyer